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Monday, October 09, 2006

new coat, fall, chilly outside, fires in the fireplace, almost 18. blessings

yes, things are looking up.


Monday, September 04, 2006

Currently Listening
Catch for Us the Foxes
By mewithoutYou
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if i could be your servant...

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you did not do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor, catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream." -Mark Twain


MewithoutYou is so good!


Sunday, July 23, 2006

Romans 7:15-20 (New Living Translation)

I don't understand myself at all, for I really want to do what is right, but I don't do it. Instead, I do the very thing I hate. 16I know perfectly well that what I am doing is wrong, and my bad conscience shows that I agree that the law is good. 17But I can't help myself, because it is sin inside me that makes me do these evil things

 

 

So true!

I hear God's voice in my heart, but I ignore it. Lord, please let me listen to You! I should have turned around and talked with them...shared Your love...


Wednesday, July 19, 2006

i'm starting out to feel the love

I have a friend that I email who travels the world. He's seen Italy, Russia, France, England, America...and he survived New York and Los Angeles!

 

I want to be that person. I want to be a citizen of the world. To meet God's children, be a spreader of positivity and love throughout the nations. That's what I want to be when I grow up--a love-spreader. A hug giver. A life saver.

Too bad you can't go to school for something like that. Or, you know...make money...


Wednesday, July 12, 2006

All is full of love.
Ukraine!

How do I start?

I'll start with the end. I've never been big on goodbyes...mine are always awkard, and I avoid them at all costs. But these were the hardest goodbye's I've ever said. They said: "I'll see you next year?" and I answered: "Lord willing, I'll be here."
&honestly, I think He is. I need to go back.

In a word, Ukraine is:

+ Beautiful.
+ Simplistic.
+ Loving.
+ Accepting.
+ Caring.
+ Warm.
+ Inviting.

The language is beautiful, the people are friendly, and my heart is sad...


Pirates in Ukraine?!



My small group. These kids are incredible. We used translators to communicate, but their message was clear--even through the pain of their lives, they seek God and l o v e people.



Clint & Me.



Alexi, Lyosha, Me.
Lyosha was one of the translators.
He greeted us at the airport and made me feel like I was home.

Zhenya!
21, the director of the camp.
First seen as a stick in the mud, but Lex and I got him to loosen up,
as seen in the picture. Basically want to marry him!


Zhenya & Nadia.
She had that awesome smile
and laugh going all the time, just such joy emitting from her.


Syoma.
What an amazing kid. He was another translator.
He had stuff going on in his life, but loved us all and was posi anyway.


Anya (Bre).
She has such a great spirit. So cute & fun, too.
A new believer in Christ, but so strong already.


Vova (Boba).
Had a crush on Lex, I think. Welcoming right away,
the type of guy who is glad that you're there with him whenever you're there.


Vadim!
The worship leader. Amazing talent. Freakin gentleman all the way.
And is coming to Irvine! for school.


Vlad.
What a ladies man he was!
He has his own band...they rap...in Russian!

I am missing a bunch...our team had a total of 38 people. I don't have any group pictures on my camera. But these pictures mean a lot to me. The memories behind them. The relationships formed through them. I wish I could keep going and going with this entry, but there's only so much I can stand to type--only so much you can stand to read.



As you can see, we went to Paris. It was a very short lay over, but we made the best of our time there, seeing the Eiffel Tower and spending the equivilant of 60 dollars in a cafe! But I've never had creme brulee before, and when in Rome...
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I apologize for not being able to accurately convey my experience. I think it is enough to say that my life is forever changed. I am new, refreshed, and missing Ukraine.

We did not leave home, we went to visit family.

&Now it's back to reality, which is harsh. But it's also good...I can live what I learned. And I will...I will...



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